Dear Friends,

Thank you all for always writing and asking how I am holding up under the weight of this struggle. It absolutely means a lot to me when friends are warm and considerate toward me.

I am holding up pretty well. I put a lot of energy into keeping and maintaining a positive perspective on my situation as well as the possibility of abolishing the death penalty. But as any of you can imagine all days doesn't come with sunshine around here, and there are many cloudy days I find myself dealing with. I always say, there's a lot going on around me, and at the same time nothing at all is going on, and I'm usually caught in the balance of the two. For example, a week or so ago the guards found a friend of mine dead in his cell. He was found with with his radio headphones on his head and his shower shoes on his feet. I was told that it looked as if he had gotten out of his bed and fell in the middle of the floor and died. Immediately rumors started to fly that perhaps he committed suicide, but that was ruled out because it didn't look like foul play. I was glad to hear that it wasn't suicide because I didn't want to think that KB actually took his own life.

Kalvin McGee was his name. He was around 27 years old. We called him KB and he used to always have a smile on that big brown round face of his. I don't really know the cause of his death but several months ago he was complaining of chest pain He went to the infirmary and told us they said it was probably gas and sent him back to his cell. Just another one of the many horrible situations behind these walls that I find myself dealing with. The nightmare continues..

My attorney sent me a letter along with a copy of the brief we are filing to the Supreme Court on my behalf. In this letter he was telling me that the evidentiary hearing for my case will be April 2Sr. This hearing pertains to the two issues the 5^{th Circuit Court of Appeals granted me a few months ago. Hopefully the judge will see the need to grant me a new trial. I sure hope so because dealing with this situation on a daily basis has gotten old. I find myself using more and more energy trying to deal with this injustice. I've noticed that sleeping doesn't come easy anymore at night. So many thoughts be running through my head ....thoughts of loved ones, thoughts of my freedom, thoughts of loneliness, thoughts of hopelessness, thoughts of the daily mental grind of this hell I live every day. So many thoughts at night that I can't seem to shut off my mind and I'll find myself tossing and turning in my bed all night...but then sometimes it is okay because often when I think of my life on the other side of these bars I find myself fantasizing till the break of dawn. But when feelings of despair creep in the nights become very hard to deal with. I wanna go to sleep so bad that often the tears start flowing down my cheeks ...but tomorrow will always be another day and it will start whether I'm ready for it or not. So therefore I'm always ready to face it with a smile on my face and with hope for justice in my heart... Life just keeps on living...}

Best Wishes, Anthony